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Angels Among Us Indeed

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Angels Among Us Indeed

Back in January 2017 I migrated to North Texas from the lowest regions of the state. It was a moment in time where I was at a crossroads of adult proportions, building the foundations for the next portion of my life. I have left behind another person, an immature version of myself whose behavior upon recollection, brings me horror. I don’t needlessly look back unless whatever was back there has threads of existence dogging me now. That’s how I know there’s more attrition that will take place. They say “forewarned is forearmed”. I’m not armed. Really all that means is I remain flexible in ways that count, to bend not break, be open to suggestions, integrate not separate, surrender. Attrition is defined as rubbing something off of a surface, or shedding extraneous casings, husk, if you will. It is also a military tactic where you defeat the flanks, wear them out until they give up. I prefer the rubbing version. It works for me. I also imagine seaweed draped across my arms and legs as I ascend from the ocean waves and I flick them off as I get to the sand, or just let them drop. Joy by attrition. (I have repeated this phrase in many articles here).

The Cancer Full Moon was still glowing silver rays when the next day I had let supreme hurts that I felt inside, rage in my world such that I couldn’t bear to be around anyone. I knew I was a porcupine and anyone who I spoke to was going to get it. So, I passed up on an important family function. I was distraught, not angry. I was afflicted with wounds, the mothers’ kind, the kind where her heart is full of sorrow for knowledge of separation from her child. It was very primal and I knew it was important, too. I was doing floor exercises for MFR (#jfbmfr) and my root and sacral chakras were so damaged from years of not being gentle with myself. This stuff wants to heal. It’s not pleasant at times but you know, the only way out is through. #joybyattrition Patience is key. Patience proves lovingness. Truly.

I cried all morning and finally fell asleep until late afternoon. At 5:30pm I suddenly woke up and looked up a community ad for rideshares in Austin. Austin is a happening city and you just never know. I decided I must find a ride up North. I have to be there at that gathering and I regretted my stubbornness. I really don’t let my mind derail me when impulses speak to me, like the one that gripped me at that moment. I emailed a few ads and got a response from one of them. I found a ride. He was turning around and coming 45 minutes in the other direction to pick me up. It was a large pickup truck hauling a small trailer. Halfway to the Oklahoma border, we drove right through the middle of Waco. They had built a huge stadium next to the freeway and used green colored lights. It was foggy…my ride and I are conversing. Hours and hours we talked and this sweet youngish guy was such an angel. I even said that to him at that point, as we are going over the bridge in Waco and the fog made the green lighting on the stadium light up the entire night sky in front of our eyes. It was like the Jetson’s (look it up). Another world in the ethers. He said “it’s funny you should say that because…well…I am an angel.” Okay, well, that was cool. I can handle that.

The ride seemed like a few minutes, not several hours and was successful. Since then, my climb out of the cave into the light has been an adventure I can’t describe. But I knew that is what I was doing and it was just okay. I called him a week later, but no more after that. I got texts from him occasionally in the winter but I had not even thought of him until today. Why? Well, because I have a new friend whose name is Angel and I had texted her. She didn’t respond so I talked to her and asked her if she got my texts. No. Oh. Huh? So, I called the number and asked if I could speak to Angel. Wrong number. Ok, now I am confused. OHHH. I got it mixed up. That “Angel” was the guy who had given me a ride in January when I was breaking through. I didn’t want to forget who he was so I programmed him in my phone as my angel but I forgot his name. I thought, “Oh, I should call him and let him know I am doing well and thanks for everything.” So, I called back. A young woman answers and is so kind and understanding but has no idea who I am referring to. I finally said, “That’s fine. Have a good night, sorry to bother you.”

I hung up…what’s this? I know people change their phone numbers a lot and maybe it was a wrong number but he may have just been an angel, for real and isn’t in this timeline now. Where ever you are, Angel, thanks for the ride, it really did help.

 

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Summer Solstice Time to Shine

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Musical Call To The Ancestors  ENTHUSIASM : Musical Call To The Ancestors Traditional Solstice Song. I kept hearing in the collective voice something about how we needed to connect to our ancestors. Our memories are full of latent invisible vibrations that music is designed to highlight and enable. So here is my invitation to my noble descendants, the ones who hold me dear unbeknownst to me and in fact each and every one. That kind of reverence is the most sacred as it cherishes the deepest part of our own selves, hence “sacred”. The idea for this came from my persistent questioning of the oracle, the IChing ideograms, the 64 Divinatory Figures, these are archetypes as the tarot only more math. My question was, what am I to do in Music? Answer was YU ; Enthusiasm, what I call God-Breathed. Yu in name. Yu is womb, the receptive on the lower trigram. The trigram above it is Thunder, the creative element, obviously ripe for something wonderful to happen and in this instance YU is saying get the people together to be cleansed by the music which was known to purify the people’s feelings from the last year. It was a joyous time to invite the Ancestors and prepare splendor, everywhere beauty and make note of the numinous. It was like a bridge to those human representatives in the outer regions. They have passed on but it is possible to communicate with them in this way.

Enjoy the You Tube Version of  Musical

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Call To The Ancestors

Music Alchemy Rides Again – Show Me The Good!

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Astrology is powerful. Once I began studying my own chart almost 4 years ago I knew I would never use the word the “coincidence” again. In a neutral sense co-incidence is fine, it literally means incidences happening in relation to each other or at the the same time. However, since the word is weaponized to discredit real phenomenon let’s leave it alone. There are many more tools at hand and available language to describe the process of being a super-sensible sentient human and co-creating our world as we go. Every living moment, not just when awake, we are creators designing our personal universe. I wrote a piece in early March 2017 that I have not published yet that would explain what I discovered about my sleeping hours. It will be posted soon because in that article, which I am still editing, I describe my activities during sleep and what I thought was occurring. I have always had an active dream life but then I discovered upon awakening that particular morning exactly who and what was using my energy, identity and will with my consent, but not in my design. I immediately removed and revoked my consent to be used by and for anyone other than myself and for my own highest purposes. Once I did that, peace returned to my chaotic mind space and within my relationships where discord seemed to be having a party.

I have been muted, in a sense, of late for the past six months. In my silence I was formulating a new universe that I needed privacy to create and not share until the baby was gestated, so-to-speak. If you know about sonograms, people take pictures of the womb baby before it’s born. It seemed the thing to do 30 years ago and is widely used today. But, the process of sonograms to see what is an interesting scene of the unborn baby, has the effect on the baby of  blowing a foghorn into their ears within a distance of micro-inches. How would you like to have a foghorn blown into your ears from such a close distance? I wouldn’t. I imagine it’s pretty upsetting, not to mention, most likely obliterates their peaceful developing frequency at that. Anyhow, I don’t think it’s a good idea to peek inside where I can’t fit and is not my domain. You just have to wait! What’s wrong with waiting? I love waiting…zen helps me do that. But now, the baby is born. You can see it and talk to it, interact and learn all about it, even hold it.

Say hello my new universe! Welcome to my movie, my life of creating harmony within the reach of my voice and within the reach of my energetic life force to a community of interest! This is my first post in and about my new universe. All my other articles are still viable, they are channels of information as well as opinion. But now, I have a better view of the landscape and so my perceptions are broader, more mature. The same thing happened with my songwriting. My first penned effort in 1997, “Walk The Wall” was no less channeled than my latest  published album in 2016 “Another Dimension”. I’ve written lots since I published Another Dimension but no albums have been compiled since I took a “retirement” from my music career and decided I would be a writer last fall. Once I can integrate those elements, which is inevitable, the new records will come. First I had to integrate my Ascendant, Sun and Moon signs. I did that with a song called “Magnificent”. To give you a glimpse of that process I will quote the verse and chorus;

 

(backstory: Cancer Sun, Libra Moon, Capricorn Ascendant – the Cardinal “cross”)

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“My Sun is not online, my Moon is divine
I love all my houses all at once, to me they are all divine.
My Ascendant, you are magnificent! But, you’re almost too much.
Too many people, why can’t we all be one?”

 

So, back to astrology. I prefer to have a “healthy respect” for these powers, forces, energies and not be afraid of them. I’m so sentient that they “get” to me when I’m not looking. So, that’s why I started looking. We all are affected whether we are cognizant of it or not. There are indeed good aspects, but it’s the “we” part that makes it good. I’ve survived the recent tribulation we all just navigated to tell you about it.

Since the run-up to the New Moon, barely 48 hours prior and ever since, I have had to out-maneuver scorching Sun rays, wrestled with a surprised Pluto in my first house and won the match by pulling a disappearing act. I confronted Saturn about abusing Chiron and won the argument by holding space then reconciled them. I dodged Uranus’s lightning bolts successfully and redirected them to a hidden enemy who was successfully outed by Eris, (thank you Eris). I won a staring down contest with Mars who was trying to be a bully but overplayed his hand. I gave Neptune a hiatus, dismissed its forces for a friend who needed a well-deserved break which was authorized by Venus. I ejected a serial killer Moon beam out of the car and held my ground so I could eat ennobled food; which I was able to do a short time later. I wrestled Rahu to the ground to put him in his place using Ketu’s wisdom – it was a tie! (no surprise there!) I had Jupiter called to the carpet for his know-it-all attitude using reverse psychology and honesty until he decided to go into therapy.

Whew! It’s been a busy minute and I’m not even a fighter! It’s all attitude. It’s all trust. I fail with the Trust sometimes…I falter, I stumble, shake it off, get up again. I am convinced in what I know from my own internal compass, from the Guardians who watch over me and inscribe my every thought, word and deed, from the consistent application of the 12th dimensional platinum shield, from meditation on Source and most of all, from my awareness of what exactly is my reason for being here. Glad to be alive. Belly breathe now. Carry on…#letsdothis

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The End of the Spiritual Soldier or The Kingdom of God is Within You

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I knew a man, long since passed away, who was a Jesuit, trained as a Nazi in Munich, Jewish bloodline. Upon hearing he had 6 months to live he began for the first time in his long years, to the surprise of all who knew him, to profess a spiritual path, a personal relationship with God. He died peacefully within a year or so. My heart says he is in a positive place, but, who knows…maybe there is redemption for them if they rid themselves of their own parasitic entities and demonstrate their repentance for misdeeds. Maybe he did that. No one is judge of another and there is always hope.

The Jesuits are not christians, they are soldiers of a different kind. They follow a protocol, an ancient one. Their general is also following orders from dual powers most know nothing about whose gender may surprise. Their identities are revealed, it’s game over. It is a very dramatic game, always drama. The dual powers are symbolised by the white/black face masks, after all, they are from the “Opera” group. Always a mask, masters of media and theatre, grand and small, mimics of human creativity, hidden. That is where their power was/is. I know it looks like they have the final word but they don’t. They have been cut off. Each human spirit has always had the only and final word upon themselves. These soldiers can do nothing about that, and they know you better than you know you. Even if they take away your physical body they cannot win in that domain, hence the deception.

With every deception there is always a window, some clue that reveals the deception so you have a way out. But, it is your very own ignorance and imprudence that betrays you. Your willingness to adhere to illusions when the reality is staring you in the face is your undoing. Ignorance is not an excuse and gets you no where. Your ignorance is laziness of the spirit which is a human trait to be manipulated. We are in the age of information. Having access to information has been necessary to bring about the close of the age and the end of their reign, which is guaranteed. What isn’t guaranteed is that it will be easy. It’s not easy. It’s simple but not easy. It is daily, moment to moment work. What also isn’t guaranteed is that you will notice the contrariness in each deception so you can conduct yourself to avoid harm. Why is that? Why aren’t we given the information in a more obvious fashion? Again, the laziness is evident in anyone who has to ask that question, as if they should be spoon-fed wisdom, or as if it is even possible to spoon-feed wisdom. It is not possible. That is why it has taken so long, why have they been able to continue on this plane for so many Aeons. Why don’t you ask yourself? Why are you deceived? How did you become so compromised? Do you know you are compromised? Did anyone do it to you?

When I look at my past and analyze every trauma and negative event, I hardly see where anyone did anything “to” me save the situations when I was a child and had not developed the power to choose. Once I was old enough to choose, often, upon suggestion, I made choices. Sometimes those choices were not in my best interest but I was ignorant at the time of the unpleasant results that would inevitably play out when I made choices upon suggestion from anyone other than myself. Then I would say, “How could I have known? I was deceived!” I said that to myself over and over. I would be angry at the perpetrator, and/or angry at myself. Did my lack of knowledge of myself contribute to that? YES! It did! I see it now! I know I have the power to choose, but if I don’t know what to choose, what is the remedy for that?

Self knowledge is not handed to you. How could anyone but you possibly know you? They can tell you what they think of you, they might even tell you what to think about yourself. You don’t have to believe them, though, right? We make that choice ourselves and are the only ones who can. How do you get to know yourself or what would be right for you? The bookstore has a “self-help” section and the internet is filled with self-help topics galore. Does this help? Apparently, not very well. Most people have no clue of their true nature and how it is different from others, or even if it is different from others. I can reassure you, it is. We are all unique in our expression yet we share the same geometry and collective senses.

I work with people on finding the tools they need to gain this knowledge. Each person, like I said, is unique, so I have gathered lots of different tools, some are integral and some are more helpful to certain people than other tools. It depends on the person. They may be thrilled when I explain some of their own character traits and they are surprised that someone could know them so well. But, I don’t. I only know some peripheral things and can show them the tools I use so they can work on their own and really take the time that is absolutely necessary to delve into their own natures and dig deeper than I care to or need to. Even if I did, it is of no use to me. The digging is the important part of the process. If someone does it for you, well, there is no “there” there. It wouldn’t accomplish anything for them or you. Do they then work on their own and find out more information that could enlighten their path? Do they apply diligence to this effort that is integrative to their survival?  I wish I could say yes, but, I cannot. No, usually they come back a month or so later, all tangled up, and I may reiterate my initial discussion with them and remind them of tools I have used and again, they are surprised at how well I know them! OMG! Really? It’s too predictable and absolutely preventable if they would just get off their asses and stop looking for the spoon-fed solution.

We can’t blame the “powers that be” anymore. WE are the powers that be of ourselves. If you choose to not exercise your own power and energy to find out these things but apply yourself only to busyness, well, you get the picture. You have no one but yourself to blame. So stop it! Stop buying readings and waving your hands in the air looking for beings to tell you the truth. It’s your own truth you need to discover and that information is located in one place only. Like someone said so eloquently, I didn’t make this stuff up, he said; “The Kingdom of God is Within You”. Why don’t we believe that if we say we know anything at all? Why don’t you ask yourself? You are the one with the answers for you, not me. Seize the day and stop looking for cracks in the sidewalk. You will miss it, that is guaranteed, if you are looking in the wrong place. However, if you think life has value, any life at all; a flower, a baby, bliss, then you have to do the work. It is the most rewarding work you can imagine and when you do the work, and only then will you be able to “imagine” and know yourself and spot the contrarities that help you avoid deception. That, my friends, is freedom.

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Secret Terrorist of the Vatican

Gaslighting Courtesy of Zen Gardner

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The following video was so difficult to watch but I am trying to lend some humanity to the public lynching of Zen Gardner. It’s got to stop. So, everyone; TO YOUR CORNERS! BE AUTHENTIC NOT AGGRESSIVE. I am sad to witness this. The reason for the difficulty for me is because it’s awkward and painful to see someone who has guided me in his writings, to have Zen called to the carpet like this. I do not know his astrology but I feel that the sign of Libra is in play here for several reasons. One is if he has Libra that means Zen has his 10th house, also called the Midheaven in the sign of Cancer. To me the Cancer Midheaven is saying; “The higher they climb the harder they fall”. This is the vulnerability of Cancer MC because that means he has a Capricorn IC. Capricorn IC is sad, too, because it means he was not supplied with the necessary emotional love from his family of origin. Cancer Midheaven by Alyssa Sharpe. As Alyssa describes, a Cancer MC has so much psychic energy and memory, they are keen to feel what people think of their public posts and persona. Because they have such vulnerability, they are targets for getting emotionally attacked by public opinion. Not all Cancer MC’s will fall publicly, she points out, but obviously, Zen is going through this.

About the Cult Participation of much of our generation: I was in a cult and got married in it, had children. I guess what worked in my favor was the abuse toward me after the children were born made me squirm big time. I did everything I could to rock the boat but eventually it capsized and I drowned in emotional and personal suffering for many years. I wanted to succeed to the height that Zen has, he is older than I, but even so, I did want that. I wanted that success but it eluded me and I am now, after 19 years, finally seeing the Ascendant Capricorn sun rise in my life, Saturn has been patient with me, as he is known to be and I’m not underground anymore. I am infused with the strength of Saturn and now have a beautiful future to look forward to. It has been an incredibly bumpy ride!

No one in their human mind would condemn Zen for his journey or for his disclosure. I do not believe anyone does. I know I do not. If I could see his astrological chart I would know better, but suffice to say, this personal life event he is experiencing right now is eclipsing his initial life goals that he was riding the successful manifestation of for some time. So, I feel there is a Libra sun sign, but a Gemini Ascendant because Gemini’s can be duplicitous, in other words, it would be easier to lie than to say your truth if that particular truth is unpopular.  Ruled by Mercury, Gemini’s are fastidious talkers but also can lie or speak occluded with ease because of the pathology of what the negative manifestation of Gemini can be. With astrology, you have to learn the negatives and positives of your chart to compensate for, literally, the wobble. We all know Earth’s balance is off by 23 degrees. That is why, I am convinced, we need to study our natal charts because our planet is off balance, hence we are off balance too.

If you study your chart and the transits, there will be a portal opening at some auspicious time to enable you to tell the truth, particularly an uncomfortable one that will bring the tension necessary to raise your frequency.  One always comes, say, when Pluto is trine to Gemini or your third house. You must do it boldly and earnestly because once the transit passes, whichever one it is, then it will be another entire orbit, potentially years, before you can get another chance when the planet comes back around. You wouldn’t even know how to access these energies if you don’t follow your own astrology.

The guilt of being in the cult he has worked so hard to compensate for that and it’s valid! He has helped many millions I imagine. But, the fact that he was forced to disclose his participation in the Family, and did not tell his audience about that fact in his initial “Missing Years” post makes him look guilty! He must have known that any facts related to his disclosure would be vetted out in public. Is he guilty of being duped by professional manipulators? NO, only if we all carry that same guilt. As we become aware of these manipulations and detach ourselves from them, we remove our guilt and work to clear our connections. My only point here is what he is guilty of is simply not trusting his audience, his readers, to be able to handle the REAL TRUTH right up front.  As I was listening to the video, I wished I was hearing more of that.  It’s only lack of knowledge. I support his journey, however that may be, just like I support all humankind to evolve naturally. Had he come clean right out of the gate, he would have disarmed many people who are lynching him now. He did not. He might have had a lack of courage to do that. He may have been shortsighted about the reaction. He may have been thinking more of how he could “Gemini” his way out of it. Regardless of the reason, he was not forthcoming with his reasons for bringing it up even with people who are devoted to him. Whether anyone sees this or not, well…that’s why they call it the “elephant in the living room”. It’s big, but easy to miss if it matches the wallpaper.